Change

I look at pictures from before the diagnosis. Chucky Cheese, everyone smiling, except for a screaming Kai(k-y) who seems to just be trying to get away. I see him smiling in a video at 3 months, before i knew. I look at pictures from my difficult pregnancy and I am smiling. I had no clue everything wasn’t going to be just wonderful. sure things were rocky in my pregnancy but i just knew lil Malakai was a fighter and he’d get here through hell or high water. and he did, he made it into my arms, with his flaming red hair. and he was perfect. not that he isn’t now, he hasn’t changed a bit. we have. he’s been given a label. a label that fits. a label that explains why he was so easy to teach to sleep in his own bed at night, when were still desperately trying to keep our 5 old out of ours. it explains why our Rowen jumps from curtains to couches and back again while Malakai is content spinning the wheels of a monster truck quietly for hours on end. it explains his love for Spongebob, and his silly dance. it explains why he has lost all the words he had learned in his first year. explains his love for a toilet and running water. his constant spinning. his lack of interest in other children.... and everything that just made Kai, Kai. nope he hasnt changed. he still likes to throw things in the toilet. he likes to hide my keys, and steal other people’s house phones. his mittens still go on his feet and he’s happy sitting in the floor stacking blocks till they topple over. our calendar has changed... doctors appointments, notes, therapies, office numbers, fax numbers, peoples names, and office addresses. his room has changed. you can see everything. his clothes aren’t in your typical dresser but rather a plastic bin, so that he can see his clothes. a makeshift schedule hangs in the hallway... nothing set in stone yet. I’ve changed, my eyes are sometimes puffy and red, and I am a more patient with him. I am learning sign language. I am putting together picture books, and organizing like there is no tomorrow. it’s almost like nesting all over again. in a way I am preparing for a new child. even though he hasn’t changed a bit.

my my how youve grown.

i havent been blogging, and thats ok. im super busy with my business, i am NOT complaining. i absolutely love it. i do want to post some new images of the boys! its amazing how fast they grow.

getting it off my chest.

its another day of confession. and what do i want to confess today? hmmm.. ok got one.

i am a midnight junk food junkie.

chips, dip, cookies, pie, cake, candy bars, spray cheese and crackers. you name it i will consume it. i prefer not to keep these things in the house because come time for kais midnight feeding, i wanna munch too. i have woken up with chocolate chips on my face, and the bed covered in crumbs, with no recollection of how they got there. i have come out of my comatose state with chocolate milk on my breath. i have found a puddling ice cream trail from the freezer to the bed. i can probably contribute most of my pregnancy(and any other time) weight gain to my midnight snacking excursions. there are sometimes that i know perfectly what i am doing and either just dont care or just cant deny these late night cravings. maybe just maybe a lock on the fridge door is what i need. or one of those piggy alarms that oink at you whenever the fridge door is open. hmm but what to do about the pantry?

what do you confess? come on i know its something juicy. swing on over to Windy Poplars and get your button, then get to conffesin!

-georgia

Its Confession Time

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so i must confess!

i want lots of kids, but dislike pregnancy. alot. if i could have ten kids and forgo the whole, gaining weight, morning sickness, cankles, and weird hair growths i would. does this make me selfish? no i dont think so. does it make me a wuss? definitely. i like to be active, excersing, walking, dancing, jigging and anything else that will get the heart rate going, it just seems though once i find out im prgenant all that stops. my umpf flies right out the window. i give into my cravings for cheeseburgers and deep fried oreos, i have no self control. im also a very angry pregnant person. as hard as i tried i just couldnt like people. i stayed in my cave and barely left. my days consisted of whining rants at my husband, hours upon hours of cops marathons, and eating everything in sight. oh yeah and lots of throwing up. plus its scary. you never know exactly whats going on in there and not knowing will feed any fear to an outrageous size! then you have the usual thoughts. will i be a good parent? how hard is it gonna be with two? will rowen feel left out? what am i going to name it? if i could just skip all that and get to the good parts, you know, like the first snuggles, watching your hubby turn green while changing the first poopy diaper. those are the things that make it worthwhile. then later comes the mamas.. the dadas... first bites... first steps... first kisses and hugs.........

and see this is what gets me in trouble. i start thinking like that and i forget all the hard times. i remember the flutters and first sonograms and am so willing to do it again. maybe third time will be the charm. maybe we will be able to welcome a little girl into the world. :)

here are the humans i have made.

                                                                              

caution. tagging in progress.

found this on a blogging site. and since im lacking inspiration today, here you have it. if you were tagged, its your turn!

Just your average countdown. Be original. Be truthful. Be yourself.

Lets hear 10 very random things about You.

1) i wish i had black hair.

2) i probably drink to much diet coke.

3) im not very organized, or motivated.

4) ive really been working hard on #3.

5) my nails are in serious need of some cool polish.

6) if i was 1 inch shorter i would have to drive/ride in a booster seat.

7) i need more followers.

8) i have an obsession with my handwriting and will sometimes write the same note 5-6 time trying to get it right.

9) i have a baby snoozing in my lap as we speak.

10) i have a picture on every wall in my house.

Ok now for 9 things you have done since waking up this morning.

1) tinkled.

2) coffee.

3) fed a baby.

4) put said baby back to sleep.

5) cleaned up dvr.

6) straightened living room.

7) kissed hubby bye for work.

8) stepped on and broke an army guy.

9) tried to fix army guy, hid army guy in trash.

Now 8 personal goals you would like to accomplish before you die.

1) have a little girl with red curls.

2) visit Ireland

3) publish a photo book

4) get in awesome shape.

5) raise my guys right.

6) see them start families of their own.

7) own a teacup pig.

8) enjoy my life, no regrets.

7 things that annoy you.

1) brewing a pot of coffee and just to realize im out of creamer. im not a regular milk kinda gal.

2) picking paper/video game plastic/candy boxes off the floor. hello? we do have a trash can.

3) getting beeped at AS SOON AS the light turns green. give me a second, damn.

4) my flab.

5) gum on the bottom of my shoes. it makes me cuss.

6) the people who say to me about malakai "its a shame he isnt a girl with all that pretty red hair!".

7) rude/slow/old/fast/ drivers

List 6 people that make you smile.

1) Matt

2) Row

3) Kai

4) Myself

5) Mandy

6) The rest of my close family and friends.

 

Tag 5 fabulous folks to do this survey next.

1)Mandy at Brunette Glambition

2) Mrs Blimes of the Life and tImes of Mrs Blimes

3) Jessica at Domesticated Bliss

4) Lindsey at the Newman Family Blomes

5) your mom.

 

4 objects(not people) you would take with you if you were on a deserted island.

1) i may be stepping out on a limb here, but maybe a fully stocked boat. im just sayin.

2) gas for the boat.

3) sunscreen

4) a good book.

3 of the best days of your life.

1) april 18th 2008 (my wedding day, this one is easy!)

2) march 8 2005   (row)

3) january 21 2010 (kai)

2 of your favorite quotes.

1)  “When the power of love overcomes the love of power, the world will know peace.”

        - Jimi Hendrix

2) "Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than 
     absolutely boring."

        - Marilyn Monroe

          And finally, 1 sound, that you have heard, that is one of the best sounds in the world.

1) Will you marry me? (its so hard to choose!)

Im jumping on the live list wagon.

and it seems that i have alot to do in this lifetime. better get crackin'.

produce a child that doesnt pee standing up.

eat one of these things in a single sitting with Rowen... and not feel guilty about it.

publish a photo journal.

go camping on the river, with just a couple of sleeping bags and the hubby.

  visit  Dublin, Ireland. and drink a guiness.

go on a family bike ride.(gonna need bikes for this one)

enjoy a sunset. just watching it. no cameras involved.

'people watch' in new york.

take my boys to a circus. a real circus, with clown cars, flying trapeze, and elephant tricks!

slip-n-slide. in the rain.

watch a duckling hatch.

build something amazing with my dad, that i can cherish forever.

get into scrapbooking, and do something with all of these pictures i have!

throw my parents an anniversary party they will never forget. give them a scrapbook.

reconnect with a best friend that i have been missing for a looong time. and be a good friend to her.

sit in matching rocking chairs with my hubby, on our front porch, holding hands, while we watch all of our grandkids play in the yard.

(these hands belong to my grandparents)

enjoy a whole day of thrift shopping with my mom.

sit on a beach at sunrise and meditate.

join the mile high club.

make amazing memories.

i will be adding a few here and there and marking other ones off. i cant wait to get started.... some i will be able to do fairly soon and others will have to wait till im 80. hope father time works with me.

 now which one first?

My Theme Song

I got the idea from Mrs Blimes. She is a dear friend of mine and her blog is just to cute! she asked, "whats your theme song today?", well mar,  here is my reply. :)

You are so beautiful to me. 

You are so beautiful to me 

Can't you see

You're everything I hoped for

  

 You're everything I need  

You are so beautiful

To me

 

You are so wonderful

To me

 

 

  

You are so wonderful

To me

Can't you see

 

You're everything I hoped for

 

You're everything I need

   

You are so wonderful

To me

 

You are so beautiful

To me

You are so beautiful

To me

Can't you see

You're everything I hoped for 

 

You're everything I need

You are so beautiful

To me

  these guys are so special to me, they make me smile everyday, and im pretty sure life could not go on without them. i think ill go tell them right now.

 

 

 

what is your theme song?

 

 

-Georgia